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A good friend of mine recently lent me a book titled "Respectable Sins: Confronting the Sins We Tolerate." I must confess that when she gave it to me I brushed it off as just another book. Today she asked me if I started reading it, and I honestly answered that I had not had time. As I got home I felt myself drawn to the book, so I picked it up and read the first chapter. Must I say that God had a couple of slaps reserved for me... LOL
The truth is that for a couple of months I have had a very difficult time finding my place in the Lord's presence. I find it hard to juggle my everyday responsibilities, with my work responsibilities, with my mom and wife responsibilities, with my .... (and the list goes on). As a result, I had found myself struggling just to get some crumbs off of Jesus' sandals.
I am not sure if you have ever experienced a time in your walk with the Lord where you just feel there is NOTHING you can do to please the Lord and in turn you are led away from Him instead of TOWARDS Him. That is where I was. I was trying so hard to do anything and everything to FEEL as though I had done enough for Him to like me, or even better love me. The more I tried, the thirstier I became! The more I tried, the lonelier it became! The more I tried, the less I wanted to be with Him, because there is NOTHING I can do to earn His love!
In theory I understand that there is NOTHING in me that is good and that will make the Lord love me, but in practice that is another ball game. I always feel I need to do more! If I am reading my Bible everyday then I fall into the illusion that God is pleased with me. When I don't though, I get a sense of failure and rejection that leads me to believe God is no longer pleased. This is NOT so... I did not do anything to get salvation, so I cannot do anything to lose it. On top of that, the Lord is an unchanging and faithful God, so I have nothing to worry about when it comes to Him.
I guess in that same manner, today I was confronted with the truth about sin. In the first chapter, the author (Jerry Bridges), says the following:
"One of our problems, however, is that we neither think of ourselves as saints-with our new state's concurrent responsibility to live as saints-nor do we think of such actions as our gossip and impatience as sin. Sin is what people outside our Christian communities do. We can readily identify sin in the immortal or unethical conduct of people in society at large. But we often fail to see it in what I call the "acceptable sins of the saints". In effect, we, like society at large, live in denial of our sin." (p.16)
WOW!! Somehow when I DO read my Bible I feel as though I deserve Christ; when the reality is that even then I AM A SINNER! Once I repented of my sins and decided to put my trust in Christ I am considered to be a saint (which simply means set apart). But I have equated that to sinless...
Oh, may the Lord grant me eyes to see what He sees... May He take you and me to a place where we would love what He loves and hate what He hates. May He remind us daily that the standard is NOT our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ... the standard is Christ!
Love in Christ,
Nana

